Tuesday, May 22, 2012

The Right Things

Isn't it amazing that even when things are going bad as long as you keep "keeping on" things will work out. Even though I've lost my job, I still will receive paychecks until the middle of July, so that gives me lots of time to find another job. Even though Loren missed registration and nobody bothered to tell him, he was able to email the professors and he got accepted into 3 classes. We have the prospects of a house to live in also. Hopefully we'll hear back from the lady soon. And even my problems with all my "systems" have started to fix themselves...except the whole losing hair thing, I don't get that. We just have to keep attending our church meetings and reading scriptures with Aly and having family prayer every night. And Loren got to attend the temple on Saturday and that brings such strength into our family. I'm going next Wednesday :).

Friday, May 18, 2012

Life was getting too easy

Well Loren and I started to get comfortable with life again so it changed apparently. Everything was going good. We both had stable jobs and the prospect of a second one for him. We are in a play together. I am going through the temple in a week and a half. We've got a great vacation planned. Loren got accepted into Weber's Online Education Degree Program. Aly's healthy and mostly happy. It was too fun.

Today I found out that the facility I work in is being shut down by the state. It's so hard for me to deal with! That place has kinda been my home for a long time. I've always relied on it being there. Those people are so much my family and I feel horrible for them. For my co-workers that completely support their families on that salary and are now losing health insurance, some of them 3 months before they have babies. For the residents that have called that place home for 15 years! And now they have to be uprooted and get used to new workers, new rooms, new friends, this late in their lives. None of it is fair for anyone. Loren thought it might look better in the morning, but it doesn't.
And Loren discovered that although he got accepted into school, none of the classes he needs are offered until at least the Fall. It's just still more waiting.
My body doesn't know what it's supposed to do either. I have to go see a doctor pretty soon, cuz my hair falls out, I can't lose weight, and my body can't remember how a girl is supposed to work ;). I just feel lonely.

But today IS a new day. I'm going into work to eat lunch with my co-workers and say good-bye to some of them. I work the next two days and then Monday I go fill out my paperwork for severance.
We have a great vacation planned and I'm looking forward to getting out of town for a while and just not think about any of it. And when I get back I'm hitting the pavement. If you hear of anything, let me know.....