Wedding and Baby!

So Loren and I got hitched Saturday the 4th. It was a wonderful day. We had so much support from family and it was so greatly appreciated. Everyone that was there: Thank you!! The weather was perfect also :). The decorations were perfect. My hair was perfect. The food was perfect. It was just a wonderful time! Pictures to come when I get them from my dad and Mark.
After the wedding we took off for Labor Day weekend in SLC. Spent a relaxing Sunday visiting Loren's brother, sister-in-law, and their girls. Monday was spent at the Hogle Zoo. Glorious! It was another beautiful day. Thankfully not too hot. We got to see the new baby elephant, Zuri, and a new baby Tamarin. The tamarin was probably the cutest thing I've ever seen!! It was only about as big as my thumb!
When we got back to IF we had to move like crazy. We got out of our "old" apartment by Tuesday night at about 1030, thanks to my dad!! And we love being in our "new" apartment. We are ridiculously happy :D.

Baby update! Into my 3rd tri now and we're are anticipating greatly the arrival of our little girl. Probably me more than Loren, just cuz that means I'll stop getting kicked in the ribs in the middle of the night and hopefully this dreadful heartburn will go away. My last doctor's appointment went really well. My doctor was happy to see that my blood pressure has only gone up a little bit and that I haven't put on TOO much weight...seems like a lot to me! She said the baby's measuring a little bit large, but everything's normal...like the heartbeat. :) Hopefully we've got 6 1/2 weeks left, just so that she makes it to full-term and I won't worry as much...but if she comes a little early then we'll be just as happy! Just as long as she's healthy.
Now if I can only find a comfortable position to sit through church...and a good way to make my back stop aching without taking time off work...wish me luck!

Beth Honeycutt :)

Ooh La La!

Where does time go??

My life is wild and crazy! Working full time leaves me NO time to relax or to catch my breath! I seriously have to stay up late, just so I can feel like I did something other than work! Even if that something is lay on the couch and watch a movie with Loren. At least I'm doing that without old people!! :) Side note: I may complain, but I DO love my job and old people! :)

Wedding update: Everything is coming along beautifully! We're keeping everything very simple and very easy (you really have to with only 6 weeks to plan) and I'm pleased with what's going down. I put my dress on tonight to make sure that the jacket is going to match ok and it's all going to be just perfect!

Stay tuned for engagement pictures! I'm going to figure out this blogging/uploading stuff one day! :)

Baby update: She is doing marvelously! Morning sickness is coming back, but I suppose everything can't be perfect! She enjoys getting the hiccups and sitting uncomfortably on Mom's nerve, but other than that she is doing well. A name will be decided before she's born!! Promise!! It's hard thinking up something that isn't already taken by a family member when your family is as large as ours!!

Au revior for now! :)

Tons and Tons of Updates!

Oh my. My life is so insane and has changed so much lately!!

So tonight I have to play catch up like a lot.

Now I'm working full time at IFHR again and I'm enjoying it just as much as last time!! My residents are amazing and very happy to see me again.
I moved out of my parents house about a month ago and I love my roommates. They're great girls and we get along very well.
Loren has been up here lots and lots and I've been in Logan lots and lots. Loren got offered a full time job here in Idaho Falls and is moving up here in just under two weeks. I'm over the moon excited!!!! I can't wait til he lives 5 minutes away and I can see him whenever I want!
Speaking of Loren...WE'RE ENGAGED!!! I spent last week with him and his family in Smithfield and had a great time getting to know them better. They are a wonderful group of people. Saturday was the pioneer day celebration in Logan, so Loren and I walked around the festivities and enjoyed our time together. That night we decided to go to the fireworks at Willow Park. We hung with his sister and parents and one niece for a while...walked around the booths and listened to the music and talked a lot. When the fireworks started, we walked around the park a little to find a perfect spot to watch and just as the finale started Loren dropped to one knee and pulled out the PERFECT ring! And I said yes...I think...we actually talked about it later and I don't remember saying yes!! But he said I did! It was all such a blur to me! I remember hugging and kissing and crying a lot! Then we went and showed his parents and headed back to his parents house for the night. We are so excited and so happy!!
With this decision came the decision to keep our baby. We are very very excited to welcome this little girl into our new family! The plan is to get married before she comes, but I'll keep everyone updated!
My life is wild and crazy and I'm loving every bit of it!!

Updates

Well...as everyone knows it's been a long time!!

Update on my surgery. It didn't go through in February due to some circustances arising, but I successfully had my first every surgery two weeks ago and everything went perfectly. I'm now gall bladder free and I can again freely eat my onion rings all I want.

I moved home in February also and I got extremely blessed with two jobs and a very cheep car almost falling into my lap within a week. I am now a happy employee of Fairwinds Assisted Living and Idaho Falls Care and Rehab. And I drive an 87 Honda Accord. Which is VERY loud. But it runs me to work and home everyday so it does it's purpose. It also got me too and from a much needed trip to Logan last week. I got to spend 5 days with the people that I love down there and just relax and not worry about when I was working next or where I had to go. Loren and I celebrated the 6 month anniversary of the night we met by going back to where we met so many months ago. We went country swing dancing at the funpark and had a wonderful time. Oh how I miss him up in Idaho.

Ok the last piece of business. I'm finally ok with telling people, but I'm pregnant. I'm about 15 weeks along as of yesterday. I'm very happy. And although Loren and I are continuing our relationship, neither of us are looking for marriage and so we are giving the baby up for adoption. I recently selected a couple and actually just asked them today if they are willing, and I'm waiting back for a response. But really all is well and life is good.

Fear

Isn't it interesting how we all fear things, but it's different with each of us. We all deal with it differently, but it's always so real to us. And it's hard when those around us don't understand and don't see it as seriously as we do. My fears right now are so scattered! I'm really scared about what my future holds. I have no plans and in a few months I'll be homeless again and then again in September. I just don't know which way to turn. Then my fears are going to be confronted again on Friday. I'm going in for surgery to have my gall bladder out. It's my first time to have doctors really work on me. I'm scared beyond my wildest dreams. But I'm also so afraid to wake up alone. I'm afraid something will go wrong or that this isn't the reason for my pain. I'm afraid of the recovery pain and I'm so scared to be left alone. And right now I'm also afraid of a situation that's come up. Loren ended things last week for once and for all. It came kinda as a shock for me a bit...I feel dumb saying that cuz I should have seen it coming, but in all honestly I think I was in denial. It came at a time when I wasn't thinking about my relationship with him at all. All I was focusing on was my upcoming weekend with MaryAnn and her family and my health problems. It was kinda brain-overload! And I was so angry that I couldn't be hurt. And now I fear where I go from here. I fear being alone and I fear what I still can't help but feel for him.

Lately:

Work's been amazing. My boss is so understanding of my health issues and is giving me as much time off as I ask for to get myself put together again. And the kids really haven't been too bad either.
My weekend this past week was WONDERFUL. It was exactly what I needed! I got to go down to South Jordan and spend some much overdue time with MaryAnn and Brian and their 3 adorable kids. They are so important to me and anytime that I get to spend with them is well worth it. I felt awful tho, cuz I had another attack on Sunday morning so I spent most of Sunday feeling sick and I was a little bit depressed over what had happened on Thursday night with Loren and I hate to admit, but I wasn't exactly myself all weekend. But overall it was very very fun.
So with Loren...Thursday night was rough. He told me that there was no chance for a long term relationship with us cuz of what he was going through when we met. And he kept saying that he didn't want to drag me into that situation (well a little too late bucko...). He also said that he couldn't fall in love with me cuz he still has thoughts and dreams about Abi and because I remind him of her. Which was the biggest slap in the face to me. I do not see myself like her and I don't want to be compared!! I honestly can say that I hate her and to tell me that I'm like her is basically asking me to hate myself! It hurt so badly that no matter what, I'll never forgive him for that. I can't go back to that. A: I won't be compared to anyone, but especially not his ex wife. B: I'm sick of being hurt by him. And C: You can't slap me like that and expect me to just forgive and forget. No Way. And so now it's over. Although I want to stay friends, and I've talked to him everyday since, I still feel like slapping him, crying, or throwing up (which is probably just my medication :)) every single time I see him.

Things that I hate right now:

Complicated boys...self-explanatory. see above :)
boys...yeah I'm done. No marriage for this girl! I'm not getting close to anyone anymore. I'm so sick of being hurt.
Feeling scared...hospital.
Feeling along...Loren.

Things I love right now:

Dark Chocolate...:)
Syd...even tho she's been sick, she's helped me so much today!
Aggie Basketball...I'm holding out for tomorrow night :)

Playing Catch up :)

Ok....It has been absolutely crazy lately!!! Starting with work. It's been rather good and not busy beyond anything we can't handle. But with the increase in snow lately the kids are getting sick again. We have two with RSV this year and one of those also has pneumonia. I have an awful immune system when it comes to stuff like that cuz of my Chronic Sinisitis so I can feel the pneumonia coming on for the second time this year...not pleasant for me or anyone around me. But at least I've only gotten strep once this year and not twice like last year! :) Small blessings... :)
Besides work I have been crazy with Aggie Basketball fever! 3 games in the past week and my adrenaline is bouncing out of control!! My boys never disappoint with the entertainment factor! Yesterday we played Nevada, which always promises to be a good game just cuz they're a good team. Last time we played them (a few weeks ago) we beat them in overtime so I was anticipating a good game and it definitely was! I kinda enjoy those games that have me stressed to the max wondering what the outcome would be cuz it's too close to call. Our boys did it again tho and we won by like 8 or somthing like that. A w is a w! :) Another highlight of my day yesterday happened while I was waiting. Some people may not realize how early I have to be at the games to get my awesome 3rd row seating, but yesterday I was 5 1/2 hours early. So to pass the time I was watching the girl's game at 3, but it was rather boring. No offense girls, but we lost by 20 so not all that fun for me to watch. So I was playing cards with Stephanie when she got up to go to the bathroom. I set up the next round and sat back to wait for her when Big Blue (Aggie Mascot, for those of you that don't know) walked over and sat down and picked up the cards. So I played Speed with Big Blue on the floor of the Spectrum. Yes life is good :)
Last Friday I went and saw When In Rome. It was a phenomenal movie! I laughed so hard through the whole thing!! It's one I'm going to buy for sure! In the words of Loren "It's a lot cleaner than I had expected" but who needs all that crass humor in a good movie? Not me! It's very enjoyable and I highly recommend it!
Speaking of Loren...life is good :) Haven't seen him this weekend, cuz he's been busy with work and Friday night with his nephew, but we've talked on the phone twice and all is well on the home front!
Friday night I went on a blind date to the Institute formal. It was SO fun to get to get all dressed up in my beautiful red dress from high school and go dancing! And Cameron was a perfect gentleman and wonderful company! I do love dating a lot! Yes yes you may say that I love my life, cuz it's true! :)

Things I hate right now:

being sick...I can hardly breathe!


Things I love right now:

Superbowl parties!!...starting soon! :)
Snow...we're getting the really wet, heavy stuff lately and it's super fun to pack into snowballs to throw at unsuspecting boys :)
Brownies...just reminding myself that I have to make those before the party starts :)
Trouble by NeverShoutNever!...look it up, very good.
Loren...as always :D